So yesterday was good. Went out a little later than usual. We talked alot yesterday too! Oh, according to him, i talked alot so i need alot of water! urgh. thanks ah. :) haha, but hey, whats going out without talking right? tsktsk.
SO, the first stop was to get my stuff somewhere at Outram. We're supposed to be there before 4:30pm. But by the time we reached there, it was already, 4:28? 4:29? 4:31? I dont really know.. I tried to persuade her to give me my stuff but she wont give it to me. She claims the doctor's not in and what not. And when i say 'her', i actually mean, the 'cashier lady' or 'receptionist' or whatever you call the people giving you the meds in a clinic. I was hoping that she would be extra nice to me and supply me with the meds but she didnt. You see, the 'cashier lady' loves to see my face(dont ask me why, cos i dont know either). When she saw me, she was like, giving the, 'ehhh! it's you!' look. then she just apologised and said, she couldnt give me the meds cos the doc left and they need his signature and whatever. And all i did was say, 'oh okay then..' and 'thank you' in the most sweet manner i can! I also smiled freaking politely okaaaayyy. awww :) haha.
After the meds.. we went.. ok, i cant really remember cos our direction was all over the place! I think we visited quite a few places so, im not at fault to not remember! :D whatever that sentence mean.
But we had dinner at a really nice place. Hey, the place was fucking awesome okay! My favourite. (: The dishes they serve are fucking awesome. Notice the vulgarity - shows a little bit of sincerity and honesty. (: No exaggeration intended. After the food, i felt fucking full, i bet he felt full too. But like, it's full but i still want to eat kind of feeling. Like, i had the urge to go and try other good food? eh eh. FOOD HUNT. haha. :)
(digressing.. )
eh, sometimes i feel my sentences dont match. Like, it's hard for you to understand what im saying cos i write what's on my mind and i dont bother writing it so the sentence makes sense.
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After dinner, went Suntec and ate somemore. HAHA. ok, no, i was just kidding. Went to the usual spot and hung out there. It was quiet as usual(with the exception of noisy honking cars and sometimes-not-nice music).. We talked and talked and talked and talked and talked. :D Adrian, you were in most of our conversations! :D hahaha.
After that, headed home with a feeling of excitement! HAHA. Excitement cos i was supposed to be home at like, 10:30 but it was alread 11 plus. And i knew i was gona get scolded. I was nervous and excited at the same time. It's called the adrenaline rush. whoo! HAHA. I think he understands what im talking about. :) So, went home and we talked AGAIN. :D good times.
Somewhere in between the night, i felt bloody pissed because of some stuff that happened. But i had to calm myself down and not think negative(which is quite hard). Whatever that person said(that's actually not negative), i made it sound like it's negative so, it disrupted my mood for abit. sigh.
You know, I think im damn sensitive. you know, like, for example you said something good or neutral and i'll take it as a negative comment. Thats how sensitive i am. Thats why you gotta be careful with your words when you talk to me cos i think deep and make out your sentences differently than it should be. if you know what i mean.
Ohwells, i woke up today feeling rather shitty. I've been thinking alot lately too. Thinking about stuff like.. ok. maybe i shouldnt say it. It's not good for alot of people to know.
Hmm, but like, i was really sad lah okay. :(
I shouldnt have high hopes for things to work out. One day, i hope you understand how i feel and you'll give me the chance.
Love,
Nadirah Im listening to what you say.
Even though i look the other way.
You could never understand,
the feeling of what im needing. |
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